Higher Than Hope
Yet again, it has been awhile, but sadly not much has been eventful in my life. Still working the crap job and the hellhole. Still dating my wonderful boy.
Last weekend John and I went camping with my brother and a co-worker at Warwick Woods. It was good to just get out in the fresh air, with no worries, just relaxing by the fire and drinking beer and roasting marshmallows and talking. Definitely needed it.
It’s October, my favorite month! I smell the wood-burning stoves and the fresh crispness in the air, watching the leaves slowly change to vibrant colors. Its exhilarating, watching life and nature become more lively when they’re dying than when they are truly alive. I wonder if that concept can be relayed to humans. Are we more lively when we near death, most people will disagree and say ‘No’, but besides our failing health, we have the ability to do what we want. We don’t have a job to worry about, we’re free, but that freedom comes a speed bump. But even in that there’s a silver lining, we’re slower because we are MEANT to enjoy the freedom and revel in the culture of the world.
Eh, I’m mindlessly musing here. I miss the college life. That’s the downside of this job, I don’t push my thinking boundary. It doesn’t push me, I want to go back to school and get my Master’s in Art Education so that I can teach photography to college students. Its just a matter of timing and money (as is usually the case).
Higher Than Hope
We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I’ll bleed forever.
Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory
